Upside down

So obviously everything about my life has changed since the last post...

I wanted to express my gratitude and love to my family and friends who have simply asked how I'm doing. Just that simple question with the right intention has meant so much to me. It's nice to know that people actually care.

To be completely honest..I'm not okay..but I know that I WILL be ok. Every day is now a huge struggle, and I don't know exactly what to do with myself. Usually I smooth talk everything..but hey this is a blog/journal right..I'm going to be blunt and honest...so brace yourself. I still love Danny...so much, not any less then I did when we were engaged. I literally have to talk myself out of texting/calling him every day. I was so blessed to have been surrounded by family and friends right after the break up happened, so I was incredibly busy. Now I'm in Rexburg, and facing my worst fear...loneliness. It' s something I HAVE to go through, even though I hate it. At this point I can't even think of dating anyone else because I'm still in love with Danny..but I have to go through the whole dating game again. I've always heard that life is hard, but before this I never really understood. I always thought others were just not optimistic enough. Now I completely understand. I'm experiencing what it's like to lose a best friend and have all your dreams and hope completely shredded.

I am still optimistic. I'm not about to let this ruin me, I just have a ways to go before I'm the normal Sarah again so I apologize if I come across different. Right now the only thing I really do trust in is that Heavenly Father loves me. I know I will come out of this a better person...I can't wait for that day! Thanks again every body for being there for me, supporting me and loving me. It's made a world of difference. Especially my brother Ryan. He has his own little way of expressing love such as coming up with analagies about Danny being a wolf in sheeps clothing lol. My brothers aren't the most lovey dovey people ever..but I really enjoyed being with them the past week in West Point. I just hope someday someone will love me and only me and I sure hope they are like my brothers and dad!

livin lovin life

These past weeks have been very entertaining because my friends FINALLY came back to livermore from the far away colleges : ].  Megan and I found the brides maid dresses..and also discovered multiple ice cream places in livermore/pleasanton haha it's been very fun. My highlight of hanging out with megan is me all of a sudden dancing like an idiot and completely embarrassing her in public : ]

   Here is a picture of Megan, Andrea and I taken by the one and only Vince. He laughed for HOURS because of this picture...he thought it was funny how megan and I looked like that in front of the "self improvement sign" hahahahaha...it is quite funny know that I look at it.

We are planning on mailing out the invitations this week...yay!

Took my bridal pictures today at Ravenswood...Brother Chamberlain took them. It was super fun to be in my dress! Thank goodness Lindsay was there, or I would have been one awkward duck! haha She knows how to make me pose : ]

Dance dance dance!

                When: July 11th!

             

                Where: On the patio at the Prusso Residence

                 What: CHOREOGRAPHED DANCE!!!!! to a mix of incredibly fun up beat songs : ]

                 Who: Ronny, Jenn and kids

                 Kim Curtis and kids

                 Kelli Jared and kids

                 Randy Lindsay and kids

                 Lindsey Rick and kids

                 Ryan Melissa and kids

                 Carrie

                 Me

= AMAZING!

*side note*

  Solos will be given 

  No excuses..all WILL participate... hahaha : ]

check list

1.) Got engaged- check

2.) Be super excited- check

3.) Wedding dress- check : ]

4.) Job- check 

5.) wedding color/ theme- check

6.) Wedding location- check 

7.) Date set at the temple- check 

8.) Invitations- struggling, but in the process

9.) Food/catering- WAS a check..but we found out in-n-out only caters in So Cal : [

10.) Bridesmaids- too hard to pick and choose the bestest of friends...but will decide soon lol

still alive

Hey y'all!
so I know it's been WEEKS since i've posted on here. I've discovered it's a lot easier to blog in Idaho then in Cali...no idea why haha! Anyways I'm back here in Livermore..loving it, loving the heat ( even though it was so so so hot the other day) and loving being where I grew up and around family : ]
BUT I miss my fiance horribly : [ we text and call often but I miss actually being around him. So it's tough but hopefully these three months will fly by.
I got a job! I will be working at the National Food Laboratory by Costco. I'm super nervous but hopefully I'll get the hang of it real quick. I have tons of pictures to post so I'll do that soon. Love y'all!

So many birthdays!

So today(well yesterday) was Danny's birthday...the big 22! His mother made him the famous italian cream cake which he loves...and chicken pot pie. It was very yummy! I covered his bedroom door with post-it notes where I wrote him a love note : ] I put balloons in his room, along with his present. It was quite fun! He's an incredible young man, and I'm so lucky to be loved by him!  He's a complete gentleman : ] and is the most service orientated person I've ever met (besides my parents of course : ] )

Not to mention he's SUCH a stud!

 anddddd today is RANDYS BIRTHDAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Just thinking about Randy makes my heart get bigger about 5 times. Heavenly father knew exactly what he was doing when he helped Randy move to Livermore with his family years ago. I remember the first day thinking "this is so awesome...I'm so blessed to have them nearby" and to be completely honest with you..that feeling NEVER went away. He is just an all around amazing guy. I love love love him to death, even when he pushes me away when I'm trying to hug him haha! 

Overall my life is surrounded with amazing people, and I just can't stand it! LOL! I seriously want to write a book on how my family is BY FAR the best : ] I think it would sell..don't you?

Happy Birthday Daddy!

So today...well actually yesterday..since it'd midnight here...but anywayz haha it is my DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!! He is such a superstar. I can honestly say that I consider him a best friend. Some times we do completely butt heads but that's only because we are SO much alike : ]. He is the most knowledgeable person I know. I always brag to my friends that my dad knows everything, because well...it's true! He is such a social person, and he really cares about others. He is one of the most selfless person I have EVER met.  He has the best laugh ever, it's so contagious. I love him and I'm so blessed to have him as a Dad. : ]