Past...Present..Future

Twice a week at school we have a class called "Specialty". We usually learn about cool things like natural facials, our inspirations, goals, how to do cool nail stuff. It's like stuff to keep us motivated and such. Today Specialty was a very emotional class. The theme was "Past..Present..Future". We were told to sit and imagine that tomorrow is our funeral. Who would be there? Who wouldn't be there? What would we do today? Then our teacher told us a very personal story of her life about how her father took his life and her struggles with that. Then we each had the opportunity to share "our story". Everyone was bawling. It's surprising to hear everyones stories and what they have gone through. Everyone has their own story. Of course we all know what mine was. I shared how I have been blessed to have a very happy life. I shared the story of Danny and I because honestly that is the only really hard thing I've gone through. A lot of people came up to me afterwards and said how they had no idea and how when I told that they all started to cry. It was such a great experience to grow so much closer to everyone in that class because we were sharing the most tender things. We all have better understandings to love EVERYONE because you honestly NEVER know what they are going through.

I want all of y'all to know that I love you so much! Every person that has come into my life has made a huge difference. I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings, or cause any of you pain. Life is short, and I don't want anyone to have a single doubt about me loving them.

Beauty Tips!

So I was talking to my beautiful sister Lindsey and she was asking me questions about her hair and I've decided I will share the wealth of my education at Paul Mitchell and put weekly tips for all y'all!

Hair Tip Of the Week:

It DOES matter what kind of shampoo and conditioner you use. I used to think that I could use Suave shampoo and just use awesome products like hairspray and what not and still have great hair. FALSE

Shampoo and conditioner are like the body. For example say I was making an ice cream sunday and I had the chocolate syrup and the carmel, the cherry, and all the other yummy goodies..but no ice cream. What kind of sunday is that? Not a very good one. Shampoo and conditioner can be compared to the ice cream. You have to have a good base for everything else to come together nicely.

So if you are aiming for volume and body, you can't use a cheap shampoo, it's the same for whatever you are aiming for with your hair.

So basically all of us always go for the cheapest stuff, we just don't have the money right? So we go to walmart and get the cheap stuff. Here is the catch. Why is it cheap? It's cheap because it's full of water and ingredients that do nothing to your hair and it's hardly concentrated at all meaning you have to use more of it. So in the end it's a lot more worth it to get a good quality shampoo and conditioner because you use less of it because it's so concentrated, plus it does the job for just a little more.

Late night journal entries

So basically I've decided to make this kind of my journal since I'm horrible at keeping a journal...I'm working on it though haha because I realized when I was engaged how sad it was that I never really kept a journal and here I was already married so I now I have a chance to go through dating games/process again and actually write it down! And no...I haven't gone on any dates....everyone seems to ask me that lately...

So life is super busy with school and PMDC (paul mitchell dance crew) I will do a whole blog on that later.

Tonight is one of those nights....

-I have these kind of nights about..6 times a week

-really depends on if I can get myself to sleep fast enough to not have time to think

-so I've decided that I really must have some kind of mental problem to still be in love with a complete jerk

Someone please answer this question:

How is it possible to know to a full extent that you can do better, that this guy doesn't treat you right, that he doesn't really care about you...etc. etc. etc. AND YET STILL literally ache to be with him again?!

MAKES NO SENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The day that I can go a full week without missing him once will be the day that well I don't even know how to finish.

Sorry to be such a downer...I know that no one likes to read or hear negative things..but I've decided this is going to be my outlet..my truth center...my way of getting all the negative out of my head and onto this instead...so if this kind of stuff just makes you sad...don't read it. I COMPLETELY understand. This is more for me then anything.

The Hair Academy Paul Mitchell Partner School

I'm finally here!!!!! YAYYY!!!! I've had SO much fun this week I can't even BEGIN to describe. I have no doubt this is the place for me. Everyone there is SO nice and fun! The very first things that we have learned and studied is about being our best selves. The first couple of days we didn't learn anything about hair and our teachers just focused on us as people. It was so great to get to know the other girls and know that we are in a safe environment where we aren't just learning about beauty but learning how to be better people in general.

Yesterday was Christmas in July. We got so much stuff...here's just a small taste..

Here is the Kit...it has majority of the tools I will be using...super snazzy huh?
This is the Kit open....it came with SO much stuff. I pulled out the blow dryer, straightener, curling iron and mirror that all fit inside.
My apron, and two capes : ]
This is my nail kit! It has everything having to do with nails in it!
This has a razor, and all the stuff to cut guy's hair with : ]
This is my tripod case.
This would be my tripod with a mannequin head on top. I got two mannequin heads that we practice on.

So basically I'm overwhelmed with all this stuff but having a blast. I'm loving everything I'm learning and really enjoying it and can't wait to put it to use!

I thought I was in love with Paul Mitchell before but now I have an entire Paul Mitchell family! This school really cares about its students, clients, employees, and everyone!

Upside down

So obviously everything about my life has changed since the last post...

I wanted to express my gratitude and love to my family and friends who have simply asked how I'm doing. Just that simple question with the right intention has meant so much to me. It's nice to know that people actually care.

To be completely honest..I'm not okay..but I know that I WILL be ok. Every day is now a huge struggle, and I don't know exactly what to do with myself. Usually I smooth talk everything..but hey this is a blog/journal right..I'm going to be blunt and honest...so brace yourself. I still love Danny...so much, not any less then I did when we were engaged. I literally have to talk myself out of texting/calling him every day. I was so blessed to have been surrounded by family and friends right after the break up happened, so I was incredibly busy. Now I'm in Rexburg, and facing my worst fear...loneliness. It' s something I HAVE to go through, even though I hate it. At this point I can't even think of dating anyone else because I'm still in love with Danny..but I have to go through the whole dating game again. I've always heard that life is hard, but before this I never really understood. I always thought others were just not optimistic enough. Now I completely understand. I'm experiencing what it's like to lose a best friend and have all your dreams and hope completely shredded.

I am still optimistic. I'm not about to let this ruin me, I just have a ways to go before I'm the normal Sarah again so I apologize if I come across different. Right now the only thing I really do trust in is that Heavenly Father loves me. I know I will come out of this a better person...I can't wait for that day! Thanks again every body for being there for me, supporting me and loving me. It's made a world of difference. Especially my brother Ryan. He has his own little way of expressing love such as coming up with analagies about Danny being a wolf in sheeps clothing lol. My brothers aren't the most lovey dovey people ever..but I really enjoyed being with them the past week in West Point. I just hope someday someone will love me and only me and I sure hope they are like my brothers and dad!

livin lovin life

These past weeks have been very entertaining because my friends FINALLY came back to livermore from the far away colleges : ].  Megan and I found the brides maid dresses..and also discovered multiple ice cream places in livermore/pleasanton haha it's been very fun. My highlight of hanging out with megan is me all of a sudden dancing like an idiot and completely embarrassing her in public : ]

   Here is a picture of Megan, Andrea and I taken by the one and only Vince. He laughed for HOURS because of this picture...he thought it was funny how megan and I looked like that in front of the "self improvement sign" hahahahaha...it is quite funny know that I look at it.

We are planning on mailing out the invitations this week...yay!

Took my bridal pictures today at Ravenswood...Brother Chamberlain took them. It was super fun to be in my dress! Thank goodness Lindsay was there, or I would have been one awkward duck! haha She knows how to make me pose : ]

Dance dance dance!

                When: July 11th!

             

                Where: On the patio at the Prusso Residence

                 What: CHOREOGRAPHED DANCE!!!!! to a mix of incredibly fun up beat songs : ]

                 Who: Ronny, Jenn and kids

                 Kim Curtis and kids

                 Kelli Jared and kids

                 Randy Lindsay and kids

                 Lindsey Rick and kids

                 Ryan Melissa and kids

                 Carrie

                 Me

= AMAZING!

*side note*

  Solos will be given 

  No excuses..all WILL participate... hahaha : ]